A Dizzy Busy Time of Year

I’m leaving on the red-eye flight to New York tomorrow, and I’m already exhausted. This trip is going to be much longer than I originally planned and even still I feel every second is double booked. I love Book Expo America in a way that can’t be explained…I love the communion with the people who make the book community what it is…authors, booksellers, publishers, agents, distributors, librarians, educators, and of course, bookish press. We all speak a common language despite our many differences, we harbor a similar goal in our hearts and an unabashed affection for books. Yes, it gets business-y. Yes there’s money involved. I don’t mean to make it sound like something it’s not, but there’s a level of hope and trust and connection I have with anyone who wishes to perpetuate a culture of literacy and reading, a world where we are never only in one life, but we exist in many.

There’s a level of excitement with the introduction of forthcoming titles. So often we think of only the finished product and for those of you who are reading this who are book bloggers, we go through books so fast. I chatted with an author the other day who rewrote each chapter of her book ten times. A well written book is the ultimate labor of love. Each book whispers of the possibility…brimming over with promise to be the next book to change our lives, the next story to impact our culture.

BEA is the ultimate place of excitement, where a beleaguered industry tries to make the best of it…burns the fuel of hope by the very act of keeping on. For me, it’s the chance to see friends, friends as dear to me as those in my every day face to face to life. For me, it’s a place of renewal, of refreshment, of inspiration.

When it’s over, and I’ve come home and collapsed, I have jury duty. Can you believe it?

In any case, I’ve had so many posts I’ve wanted to write here, but just not the time. So many fragmented thoughts that need a space to come together and become something. I hope after BEA to return a little more attention here.

Some of you…I will see you very soon.

Becoming

I turn 30 on Saturday, it’s here already!!

And I realize that yet again, I’m changing. I feel very different from the person I was even at the beginning of this year. I feel like I’m finally starting to realize that who I am is an okay person to be, and that the values I hold are part of what make me who I am.

It probably sounds strange but I have felt at odds sometimes with things I truly believe in my heart and also what I sort of thought I wanted to be. But I can’t really compromise on who I am. Who I want to be now is….me.

It only took 30 years to realize this! And I know I’m not totally there. I think I will forever be pulling back the expectations put upon me society, family, and yes, self. It’s a little bit like chipping away at something that has masked me and slowly I see myself emerging.

I think becoming is a lifelong process. We change as people and yet when we embrace the change within it can feel like acknowledging….yes this is who I really am, who I was always meant to be.

What I’m Doing Now

Winsome Media CommunicationsA lot of you have been asking me about my job hunt and I’ve been a little evasive for which I apologize. The reason is that I wanted to feel like things were on a more solid footing before I made any sort of public announcements.

When I started this phase of the job hunt I had a lot of people tell me exactly what they felt like I should be doing and since it aligned strongly with what I enjoy doing and also want to do, I decided to go for it. I’ve had some amazing support for which I’m unspeakably grateful and I also have a wonderful business partner, Nicole, some of you know her from Linus’s Blanket.

I am now creating and coordinating online publicity and social media campaigns. That’s the overarching idea of our business but we can perform a number of services including copy writing, blog set-up, and social media training.

For the first time in my life I understand how people become workaholics as I’ve spent a few weeks in a complete cave of work. And I love every second. It’s such a good fit because it meets my need to learn…one of our first clients was a musical theater writing duo and that’s been a huge learning curve, but I’ve really enjoyed learning about the industry. I also really and truly believe in online community to shape taste and to connect people to art they’ll love…so I have the natural passion for this.

But obviously this is also a huge leap of faith. I’ve wondered a few times if I’m completely crazy. But I’m excited and enthusiastic. Right now, this feels like the right thing. Anyway, if you’d like you can check out our website and also of course, please send all your friends our way. 🙂